… do not a happy hunter make. Watch out, I’m about to get my rant on.
Last night was not a good night for me.
First of all, we’ve been having discussions about how to do loot distribution. Our current system has some flaws, and we’re trying to figure out what’s optimal.
And by “we” I mean “all officers and raid leaders but me.”
It seems like every piece of input or suggestion I add to the discussion just gets passed over. I spent a good amount of time trying to come up with a nice little flow chart to consolidate the ideas we were working on, because I thought that would help us sort through it and make it simple for the raiders. I’m pretty sure no one even looked at it.
Fine. I can take a hint. My input doesn’t matter. It’s ok, at least I still get to raid!
But wait, there’s more.
I gave up my spot in Wednesday’s raid so I could get caught up on my sleep from the trip to Las Vegas and be rested up for Thursday. If all went well, we’d be working on our first kill of Malygos on Heroic, even though we’d never even killed him on Regular. I didn’t want to fall asleep during that. A brand new first kill – I’d been a part of none of those yet in Wrath, and I was really looking forward to being part of the first kill of the last boss.
So I came online about half an hour before the raid, I went and did some fishing for some stat food, made sure I had all my bullets and flasks and everything with me, and then started heading out to Transitus Shield.
While on the flight, I switched windows so I could refresh myself on how Malygos works. Never been there before, figured I should be as prepared as I can be. Came back in just in time to see my raid invite time out. No biggie, so I asked for a new one while I ran over to the entrance of the instance.
So I waited.
And hopped on Vent.
Counted the number of people on vent… 26. Counted the number of raiders now in Borean Tundra or EoE… 26.
There was no room left for me. I lost my spot to a non-raider paladin.
How could this happen? Unemployed is so organized… we have spreadsheets for our raid rosters and everything! Well, the raid leader had decided that if exactly 25 people or less were signed up as available on a given night, he didn’t need to bother filling it out. I kind of suggested it would be a good idea to fill out anyway, at least for clarity of the rest of the guild, since we are used to that roster setting the raid group in stone. And also, if he miscounts, no one is going to catch it if there is no roster.
“I thought you were already in here.” Thanks, that makes me feel much better.
A few kind people offered their spots to me, but I refused. It’s just as unfair for them to sit out as for me to sit out. They aren’t the ones who “forgot” me. I was already upset, no need to make anyone else upset. And my DPS would have sucked, I’d probably end up trying to attack the raid leader instead of Malygos!
But I knew I was going to miss my last chance at seeing a very first kill, and I knew they’d get him down, which they did. And I was pissed.
I still am pissed.
Now I am posed with a question. Why am I an officer anyway? Guild Events officer – I haven’t run a real guild event in a while. I have been too busy with all the Las Vegas stuff. I don’t lead raids, which is what officers are for in a raiding guild. I don’t give insightful input on any level, I feel like that kid in the school project group who tries to give input but no one really cares what they have to say, they just barely pretend to listen.
Maybe it’s time to step back.